Every six weeks I attend a sort of meditation/vision/journeying circle, where the group works with various stones or crystals. Usually everyone holds the same variety of stone. We sit in a quiet, dim room together and hold the stone, and allow our instincts to guide us through the visioning process. I don’t typically blog about these journeys because they are usually intensely personal.
While I won’t share all of last night’s journey here, one part of my journey felt universally applicable.
At one point I saw an image that I associated with sacrifice. It was a loving, willing sacrifice, and it was beautiful even though it was permeated with sorrow. As I experienced this energy, I had a moment of dread in which I thought “What am I going to be asked to give up?” What I heard in response I realized was not just a message for myself, but for all of you.
This is what I need to tell you all:
The question is not what you will give up, it is what you will offer up. The only difference between an offering and a sacrifice is the amount of love and joy in the giving. Expressing the passion that lies at the core of your being is the opposite of selfish: it’s the epitome of generosity. Your gifts are not just gifts to you; they are gifts to the entire world. Your gifts are god’s way of loving the world through you. The continual honing of those gifts is an act of service.
Hoping that the world will allow you to carve out stolen moments to indulge in your guilty pleasure is not a useful way to think about your gifts. Begging for crumbs to feed your passion is not a useful way to exercise your gifts. Just as you are privileged to have opportunities to engage in the act of self-expression, the world is privileged to receive the fruits of your self-expression,
In other words: You are, in fact, god’s gift. Deal with it.